The Reasons I’m Cutting Off All My Hair
I have made so many changes this past month. I can tell I am becoming more confident in myself. It’s the first time, (in a long time,) I feel happy. I think this is what everyone talks about when they say, “You start to discover yourself in your early 20’s.” This month I found I love yoga and reconnected with my Buddhist practice. Nowadays, I hardly wear any makeup. (Whereas before, I would never leave the house without it.) I am also finally starting to be financially responsible by setting long-term goals, (I want to build a tiny house.)
Cutting off all my hair is a huge decision. Currently, my hair sits about four inches past my shoulders. It is blonde and very thin. I hardly ever wear it down because it is too hard to style, so most days I put up in a messy bun. Cutting off my hair is something I have always wanted to do, and I admire the women who have shorter hair. In Buddhism, hair is seen as superficial, (That’s why monks shave their heads.) While I am not anywhere close to wanting or ready to shave my head, I do think, in cutting my hair I will get rid of some superficialness that haunts my soul.
My mom is a hairstylist and owns a hair salon. When she was in cosmetology school, she got a pixie cut and now says she regrets it. At the time, I thought she was very brave for cutting her hair. I suspect she let my step-dad, who was very critical of her looks, tear her down. Her primary concern is that I will regret cutting my hair too.
While I appreciate my mother’s concern, I think my outlook on life is very different from hers. First, I never regret any decision. Instead, I try to look at mistakes as learning experiences. I am optimistic about my haircut, and many close friends are reassuring me that the cut I want will look good on me. But if for whatever reason, I chop off all my hair and hate it, (very unlikely,) at least I will know not to do that again. I know if I do not cut it I will always have that “What if?” question floating in the back of my mind.
I’ve been on Pinterest non-stop looking at different haircuts. I have found one that I am in LOVE with and two others that are similar but a little bit longer. I am not going to lie; I am a bit nervous about the big day. I have to keep reminding myself that it is just hair. If you are someone who has already chopped off your hair, please comment below and share your experience. Also, I have provided links below that I found to be helpful in my decision-making process.